Not easy to do what you don’t want to do and wait until you can be who you want to be.
I started reading this book, 101 Secrets For Your Twenties, where the author, Paul Agone, writes as though he’s inside my head. Its comforting/ strange to think how so many commonalities can exist among a group of individuals just because of their age range. From what I can tell, this quarter-life crisis of mine is not anomaly-practically the norm.
One thing that Paul said that really stood out to me was regarding chasing one’s dreams. Rather than simply conceding as most adults I know do that dreaming is simply a way of making actually living more bearable, he posited that the problem with dreams is not the fact that we dream too much or too big, but more so, our unrealistic timelines.
Given my current situation, this advice particularly resonated with me. I currently work in a call center, nights, and spend my days trying to figure out how to get out of said call center and start doing something related to my degree. I want to be able to make change happen, have my knack for writing and pension for creating actual be used not only to make an impact, but most importantly, get me paid.
I am at a weird point right now where all my planning seems for naught and I can’t figure out my next move. I really hate my new apartment, but I’m not sure how to get out of my current lease. I also want to start my masters in January but that’s really soon and I currently do not have any housing/job prospects in Atlanta, where I plan on getting my degree and five months is a short window to uproot one’s life/ start a new path. And money sadly rules the world, and I can’t do much of anything without it.
So, first step is to find a job, any job that pays decently and won’t send me (flying) off a bridge in Atlanta. Once secured, I can figure out housing and most likely will have to postpone starting school in Fall. I also really want to be done with my novel by the end of the year, have a blog/website with a lot of traffic, learn Spanish, rule the world, etc. Which is probably why I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed and overworked the past few years. I got to just focus on what I can do now.
Dreams aren’t impossible to achieve, but impossible timelines will defer them indefinitely. Got to start making more reasonable/doable plans…though it hurts my little high strung shoot for the stars heart. Need to only take what I can currently swallow.
So first thing is first-a job. And anyone who may happen to see this post, if you know any good places to work in Atlanta, I’m all ears.